"To see a fashion show"- The Seduction by He Is Legend.
If only there was a lot to update about my life.
Almost got
fired for being considerably later than normal for a... sixth? seventh? time. Had serving shifts suspended and now get to work second shifts on weekends. Some might say, "Hey Jake! Now you don't have to be up early so you can hang more!" I wish. I enjoy working 1st shifts so as to not waste my time, which as of late I realize is fleeting by faster than I'd like. If I work early, I get up, go, get done, get home and do school stuff or other productive shit or even just video games. Whereas if I work at 3pm and don't need to be up early, one is lucky to reach me prior to noon.
Ya dig?
Regardless, was told by my employer recently that he's considered me for promotion at times but I need to "grow up"....
I'm 20.
I go to school full time.
I work from 20-30 hours a week.
I've lived away from home since the age of 17.
Have to be the beacon of strength/sanity for my younger siblings who will grow fatherless.
Grow up?
Riiiight.
So if I decide to be a little
LOUD, or overly
sarcastic, or r@nd0m, or smoke some
skuunk, or sip a lil
ripple, or go look at the sky for hours, ex-fucking-cuuuse me. But I know what I'm doing and for my mountains of madness, there are
methods.
Nevertheless, I have discovered the tragic flaw in the epic of my personal life.
Sarcastic.
Muppet-like.
Cartoony.
Animated.
I have been called all of the above. In good and bad ways.
Reader's Digest: No one has ever really taken Jake D Juliano seriously.
Srsly.
I got pissed, even visibly so which is rare for me...and people laughed. (Fuck being peaceful all the time, right?)
I told my HS crush how I felt straight up in HS... and she told me she thought I was joking after breaking up with my girlfriend to tell her. (Fuck trying to show some seriousness, right?)
I do a pretty damn good job at my workplace AND normally am the last employee to lose my cool at work,... but because the way I keep my head on when cooking, I need to grow up EVEN AFTER proving I can calm down through serving. (FuckFuckFuck me, right?)
To quote SLC Punk, "Nooo. Faauuuuuuuuuuck YOOOOOooooOOOooooouuuuu!"Fuck you social norms. Fuck you stigmas. Fuck you assumptions. Fuck you who judges by the cover. Fuck you class war. Fuck you government stronghold.
I'm "grown up", mature if you will, beyond my years for sure, and have definitely seen some shit few ever could conceive. Some may be thinking of their image of me and it more than likely is of a time I was
YELLING,
running around,
unashamedly naked, told a crude joke, making an ass out of myself, and just maybe all of the above if you're lucky.
With this image one does not equate "seriousness/maturity". And for some decent reasonings I guess. But to be honest... I'm 20! A quarter of my life on the American average. 1/4th. Gone.
Fucked up, huh?
That is why I am who I am, and that is Jake D "Posi" Juliano; doing my best to bring: a smile to your face and my eyes, a laugh to a downed soul, a shoulder to your weakness, an ear to a much needed vent sesh. And if it takes me making myself look "immature" to up someone else's PMA, it's done. Twice. I'm stoked on life normally and want to spread it about.
One life. You get to live 100% of one life. And with 80ish being the average male age of natural death, That means I'm somewhere between living 25% of my life all the way up to 99.99% for all I know.
Now how's that for being serious?
Big picture, all you really need is...
<--- love.
Whether it's your life, your friends, you family, or most importantly yourself; just love.
I think about this guy... alot
