Unhappy With the Riches 'Cause You're Piss Poor Morally

Well I've been up since about six am. Wooo!


Hmm, past few days were aight times.


Chilled, worked, show, Bonertime at DudeRanch, worked, and watched some rad movies. Like this -->


Anywho. Life's been more positive than not lately, so I'm stoked on that. If it were up to me a few things (Relationships [God, Friends, and Girls], and financial situations) would be changed, but it's not so whatev! Woo!


So I'm 99% sure I'm getting my friend Brent's car, Preston, within the next week. Couple trips to Meadville and I'll be set! Hmm, what else should be happening this week... possibly more volleyball on tuesday, I need to withdraw from American Literature II which means I need to see my Advisor (good ol Rodenbrah), TUESDAY!

I almost forgot, and keep forgetting, screw volleyball this week, I'm going to Tuffalo suckas! Ahhhh!! I don't even wanna finish this anymore!!! Just look at this!!

Rollin Down the Street, Smokin Endo, Sippin On Gin and Juice! Laiiiid Back.

I almost dare to say things are going right.
Just to tempt fate.
Last time I posted something like that I said I shouldn't because things would immediately go downhill and people mocked me, but there was definitely a slump following that, hahaha. So there!

But yes.
Weather = Good
Friends = Great
Job = Good and getting better I hope

I love working out.
I love my friends.
I love God for blessing me so much.
I love life.
I love 90's hip-hop/rap.


ATTN: Girls
(I almost said ladies then didn't because A: Most aren't and B: according to Mark it's creepy)
I've decided you're missin out. That's all there is to it, haHA!



So yeah.



Also went to Adagio recently with Parker for moral support, once again, clean as a whistle. I wasn't even worried, had no reason to be, but still just nice to know. I'm definitely luckier then some.

Hmmm.


Can't think of anything else, except that I still want to be doing something musically right now. So get at me if you feel the same, I know of a couple other people that are down, but more is needed. Refer to "A Clockwork Orange" for details.

The Old Me Is Dead and Gone...Dead and Gone

"My Life"

So I've been doing alot of introspection.


Like always.

Right now certain aspects of life are way up, others, not so much.

Highs:
At work- I'm finally getting some leeway with the GM. Soon I'll be training out in the front for a change of scenery while at work, and just to see how the grass is on the other side. Still cooking, but hopefully I can get out to the front to make some pocket cash one or two days a week. Also, if I can prove that I can be serious while at work, maybe management will take me a bit more seriously.


The gym- Slowly but surely, results are showing. For once I've started doing something and have stuck with it. Many people doubted, and it was partially that, partially Adam's and a couple other's encouragement, and lastly me wanting to get jacked that kept me going. I can't thank Adam enough for all the training, support, and advice. (That's not me)-->

Mediums:
With school- Education. :sigh: I want to teach English, I really do, so I'm not going to switch unless I see my GPA drop. Next semester I'm just going to take core classes though to see if I can build up my currently 2.37. If I do switch, it's going to be to either Political Science (in hopes of becoming President) or Psychology (I took extra personal studies of it in HS and enjoyed what I was learning and I'm always hearing people out, so I think it would work).

Lows:

Social Life- I have been hanging out alot, but not enough with people I don't see often and want to see more. I loved the excursion into the depths of Forward Hall with Eli, Casey, and Mark. I want more of that. Also I want to be Nerfing with the crew again. Basically there's a bunch of people I don't see enough; Brent, Cody, Adam, Mark, Whitesauce, Casey, Johnny, Eli, Tom, and others as well. I realize this is partially my fault, but I also rarely know when/where people are doing things.

"more of this"

Girls- Are 99% jokes. For real. I just want to find that one. I guess the big man will send her/ let me know who she is when he feels I need/should have her. But as of now... who knows.

God- I'm not saying he's low on my list. I'm saying that I've definitely been straying. I do my best to talk to him when I can. But lately...

Random:
Dammed Up- Lately I've needed a release. For the longest time it was Guts + Glory. As of now though, I have no outlet whatsoever. I almost wish Herb would've actually tried something just so I could go nuts. Musicians, please refer to my previous blog and get at me if you're down.

Smoking and such- I'm going to smoke a lot less spliff. For real. I need more clarity in my life. As for cigarettes, I'm really going to be doing my best to quit here soon. With working out I'm getting in shape, but I want to be healthy. Legit healthy.

Drinking- I'm only putting this in here for all the people who think I have been alot. Since New Years altogether, maybe 4 or 5 beers. Altogether. I honestly can say, I haven't been drinking at all. Not saying I won't anymore, but it's gonna be a rare sight to see me how I was at Christmas Eve Eve and New Years.

My dad- Lately, I just wonder why. I want to know why everything happened how it did. Why he chose to do what he did. Why he said the things he did. Why God chose to pry my family apart. Honestly, the main reason I didn't go to my Uncle Frank's viewing was because I was scared. I didn't know what would happen, who I'd see, what they'd say, how I'd respond. I don't like not at least having some idea of what's going on. So instead I decided to go smoke the fear away instead. Awesome job Jake.